We are called constantly to
welcome the mystery of God in the midst of ordinariness. and our waiting is about
powerlessness and poverty, for in Jesus the mystery of God is
constantly revealed even as it is hidden. If indeed we seek intimacy with this
Mystery, vigilance will always be essential because of the divine reversal that
always obtains. God is always reversing things, turning things upside-down,
doing it his way, sneaking in through the side door.
In the crucified and risen Christ,
we experience God’s modest but insistent plea for our love.* But there is always the real danger
that we’ll miss him, get preoccupied. Waiting is so hard, so passive. But the
thief is coming, sneaking in, rest assured. He rewards attentiveness; he is
attuned to our deepest yearnings. And if we are meant, called to live in
incessant desire for him, it is of course because he is always at the threshold
of our yearning, yearning for us more than we can imagine. Our responsibility is incessant availability to his presence.
He is attentive to the desiring that
underpins each action of our day. His coming toward us does not depend on our
explicit words of prayer, but on our implicit, incessant desiring for him which
he notices in the deepest recesses of our hearts. The Lord has taken us at our
word; he remembers what we’ve told him we want. He is sneaking in through a low
door even now.
Bust of Jesus, Andrea del Verrocchio (1435-1488) Florentine, after 1483.
Gessoed, painted, and gilded terra cotta. *Oliviér
Clement