ST JOSEPH'S ABBEY, SPENCER MA

And as we experience suffering and divisions in our Church, our country and our world, we recall Saint Paul's admonition to the Philippians: "...whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is gracious, if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things." We pray with confidence; we live in hope. Photograph by Brother Brian.

“To come after me you must deny yourself, and take up your cross.” It is always sobering to hear these words of Jesus. But we know the great beauty of the gift he first gave us - the gift of his very Self - which has drawn us beyond ourselves. We are willing to lose ourselves, for we have found in his love the very reason for our being itself. Our promise to follow him inevitably entails an availability, a surrender, a willingness to suffer and die with him. Jesus wants all that we are. And he deeply desires to give all of himself away to us. Let us open to him.

  We have the normal bodily response, which is fight or flight, fear and anger. But another style of response emerges from our souls. From that core piece of ourselves that doesn’t have any shape, size, color or weight, but gives us infinite value and dignity. And this response is an aesthetic response. It’s the one that causes us to hunger for beauty, to be called by beauty to partake in beauty, to pay attention to compassionate actions, to sacrifice for a neighbor, to keep a neighbor safe. These actions and these acts of beauty, like the Sermon on the Mount, like the Lincoln Second Inaugural often involve flipping the script, upending values. On one level, these acts of beauty and pure gift and loving care are radically illogical. They are vulnerability in the face of danger. They are gentleness in the midst of bitterness. They are compassion in the midst of strife, but these are the acts that have the power to shock. These are the acts that have the power to open hearts. These...

"Your desire is your prayer; and if your desire is without ceasing, your prayer will also be without ceasing. The continuance of your longing is the continuance of your prayer." Saint Augustine The Lord always wants to stir up our desire for him, and perhaps most of all to stir up our confidence in his desire to share all that he is, all that he has with us. Our confidence in his desire is so essential. The God who is at once totally available and at the same time altogether beyond our reach draws us into the mystery that he is; draws us into himself. For God in Christ is always moving toward us. "His desire gives rise to yours," says Saint Bernard, "and if you are eager to receive him, it is he who is rushing to enter your heart; for he first loved us, not we him." Jesus enfleshes this towardness of God -    going out of himself, rushing toward us as he seeks to captivates us with the “spell of his love and his desire.” Dionysius the Aeropagite Imagine th...

My being is present in others as guilt or grace. We are not just ourselves; or more correctly, we are ourselves - with others and through others. Truly we belong to each other and understand ourselves in communion, in community, in connectedness. Photograph by Brother Brian.  Lines from Eschatolgy by Joseph Ratzinger.

As monks we have come to realize more and more that God alone is enough for us; and so we have surrendered our lives and fixed our gaze upon the Lord, retreating into the cell of our heart in the solitude of the cloister and fraternal life in community. In this way, we seek to become more and more an image of Christ Jesus our Lord.  Photograph by Brother Brian. Lines adapted from Pope Francis' Apostolic Constitution:  Vultum Dei Quaerere.

Which of us is worthy - of love, of real relationship, of holy communion? Only the love of the other, earthly or divine; only that gaze of love can draw any one of us into the reality of our belovedness. Small wonder that the intuition of the Church has placed this prayer just before Communion, “O Lord, I am not worthy.” We are not worthy, but truly loved beyond measure. Only Love has made us worthy. Indeed, in his desire for each one of us, in his dying and rising for us, Jesus has loved us into worthiness.  He simply refuses to not love us, no matter what. Still we know the closer we get to him, the more clearly we see who we are. Always with the realization of God’s nearness, there is not boasting or complacency but awe and reverence and bitter self-knowledge. Who am I? The response of a grateful, awe-filled heart is always appropriately - I am not worthy. Noticing the blessing, the undeserved abundance, we see clearly who the recipient is, worthy, blest and beloved not becaus...